Part 21
"I'm a what?" Wil choked out, turning around to face Kate again.
"I didn't know how to tell you, and I was hoping that doing these things would make it easier."
"Well, why didn't you tell me you were pregnant when we broke up? Surely you would've known."
Kate shook her head. "I only found out after I went back to the US. I thought it was air sickness but it turned out to be morning sickness."
"I can't believe you're bringing this on me now, of all times. If you had come back just three days earlier maybe things would've been easier. I'm with someone now, someone I love more than anything in the world, I can't be your kid's father."
"But it's a boy, you always wanted a boy."
Kate was making it much harder for Wil to reject her like he wanted to do, bringing a child into the world was not part of his plan, he didn't think it right for a child to grow up without both parents.
"So where is he then?" Wil questioned, knowing he wasn't in the room with them.
"My mother is looking after him in New South Wales at the moment, I thought that would be easiest. I wasn't sure how you'd react."
Wil shook his head, trying to reject this information from his mind. He didn't want to be a father, not for anyone, not any more.
"I'm sorry, what I said before is true, I can't be his father. I'll offer to pay alimony or something, but I can't get back with you."
Kate looked away and Wil could tell he upset her. He didn't like upsetting people but she had hurt him in the past too, and now he was happy that she had. It made it a lot easier for him to tell himself how to accept this situation.
Kate didn't want the money, it was never about the money, and she regretted breaking up with Wil to further her career in America. She turned and lay face down on her bed and began to weep. She wasn't very happy with Wil's decision.
"Kate, don't be like that." Wil said, following her onto the bed.
Wil started to massage Kate's back, hoping to make her feel better. She continued to cry and he didn't realise it was just a trap.
"Why are you doing this to me?" Kate said through her tears.
"You know I'd have it another way if I could, but I'm not in love with you, I'm in love with someone else."
"Who is she?" Kate questioned.
Wil froze; he couldn't answer that question. It wasn't a she, and he didn't think Kate would understand. There were other reasons too; he wasn't ready to tell everyone about Rove and himself. He was faced with a dilemma yet again.
"I don't have to answer that, do I?"
Kate turned at looked up at Wil with bloodshot eyes, he hadn't realised she'd cried that much.
"Well I guess not, but I'd like to know who's replaced me in your life." She answered.
Wil turned away and stopped massaging her; he couldn't answer her, yet he couldn't lie to her either. He'd loved her once, and he knew it could happen again. Making eye contact, no matter how bad her eyes looked, would be a problem. Wil tried to change the subject.
"So what's our son's name?"
"Brian Anthony." Kate said, thinking quickly.
Wil smiled. "Nice name. Brian Anthony Fischer."
Kate started to smile again, she thought she'd managed to win back a little something. She might still have a chance after all.
"Thanks." Kate said.
"Well it'd be nice to meet him, even if we're not together. You'd let me do that, wouldn't you?" Wil asked.
"Well I don't know, I'll be going back to the US in about a week with him, so unless you come with me to New South Wales, or come to see me in the US, it might be a while before you'd get that chance."
Wil sighed, not knowing what to say. What was even harder to think about, was how he was going to tell Rove. Rove was probably going to tell him to ignore his love and get back with Kate, and that was not what he wanted to hear. He just wished there were something that would make it all go away. He hated it when life was so difficult and he had no idea what to do.
"So," Kate started.
"I don't think I'd be able to do that." Wil said. "If you're going back in a week, I mean I have to be here for the festival, and for Rove in hospital."
"Well I'm sorry then, I guess you won't be able to see him."
Wil's eyes saddened, he didn't want to be a father but as long as he was, he wanted to at least see his son. He wondered if there was anything else he could do.
part 22